Back when I used to work at Irresistible Ink during my first yearly review my boss referred to me as 95%. He told me that I can do any project and fly up to 95% and afterwards wait until the last minute. I sometimes feel like this is true about my life lots. I can climb to near the top at almost anything I do. Be it djing, working within the car club, or work. It seems like it comes with relative ease as if I prove to myself I can be the best, then slouch off. I wish I could explain why I do it, or where it came from. I know that when I push myself, I climb over the wall but there have been few times I’ve done that. I really don’t know where all of this is coming from either. I should be in relatively high spirits. I’ve been working a bunch of hours but beyond that, I’m on track for a very successful year in my life. I love my job, Brandon starts work there next week. My dj crew is growing more and more and we’re throwing 3 shows in the next few months which will put us at the 4 shows I wanted to reach in the beginning of the year.
For those that don’t know, I also signed up for a gym and I’ve already lost 6lbs in the last 2 weeks which puts me just a hair over the 2.5lbs / week goal I set for myself. Yet at the end of the day, I feel dead. I haven’t felt like going out for quite some time now and even playing out isn’t a priority. I really think I need a vacation and may opt to take one in October. I’m really considering just getting in the jeep and driving. Where I end up, it really doesn’t matter as long as it’s away. Of course, that means getting away from work, probably everyone I know as well. I really enjoyed being away with an entirely new feeling. Driving in downtown Nashville, not knowing what I was going to find was exciting. Granted this would probably be a better plan if it was summer but maybe I’ll just go that far south. Who knows, not me that’s for sure.