I hate it when I can’t sleep. When something gets drilled into my head and I roll around trying to sleep. I’ve had problems falling asleep my entire life, at least when I’m not burning the candle at both ends. Nights like last night though really kill me. I’ve had too many things on my mind as of late and they started to apex last night.

On the dj side of things, last Wednesday on my show on AfterhoursDJs.org I did a tribute to Kaskade. Kaskade is to deep house as Hatiras is to funky house. At least in my eyes. It’s a 57 minute long set that Christian joined up with me to tag team on. He laid down the first 5 tracks and I finished off with the remaining 8. So on that note, I recommend you download it now.

As most people that read my site know, I’m a non-drinker. I’m not really against it, hell I won’t even say I’ll never drink, but for the time being, I’m happy saving my money on the weekend. The other day I was out to eat with Christian and he asked my why I don’t drink.
For those that don’t know, the thought of drinking has never really appealed to me. I’m a fan of being completely in control of myself. So with that said, here’s the quick and dirty list of reasons I’m not a drinker.

• Control. I’ve heard so many stories about people doing something when their drunk from cheating on significant others to crashing their car while driving. Not to say that I would do this, but as it is if I completely avoid alcohol, I’ll never have this happen. I’m in control of any and all mistakes I may make

• Cost. I’ve watched friends spend over $100 easily in one night. I spend enough money on other things in my life where I don’t need another expense.
• Addiction. Again, not that I would, but alcoholism runs in my past. My biological father is a severe alcoholic. The last time I spent a week with him, there wasn’t one time over the period that he wasn’t drinking something non-alcoholic.

Anyways, Christian for the first time ever actually made a very valid argument about drinking and why he thinks I’m cheating myself by not drinking. Essentially it breaks down to missing out on experiences I could have while under the influence. While I do maintain a bit of reservation normally, drinking would cut some of those inhibitions loose. Obviously, I’ve known about the power of liquid courage for years, but I’ve almost prided myself in approaching these situations sober. If I can perform the same without alcohol, does that not make me a stronger person?

Anyways, I’m not going to start drinking anytime soon. (At least I don’t plan to) The conversation was probably the best argument I’ve been given for drinking and I wanted to bring it up. I’ll admit my curiousity is piqued, but it just makes me want to try harder in situations where I think drinking would assist me.

nobody reads my page anymore. i’ve finally accomplished my goal!

anyways, i’ve been pretty happy lately with my life. i always like to rant and rave on this page. then i started ranting and raving about my ranting and raving. so take that for what it is, and for once, put up with me talking about the good things. While I grow more tired of my tier 1 job every day, I still enjoy the company of most of the people I work with. I’m glad for where I’m at (location wise) but hopefully Identix will see the light and give me a damn promotion so I quite trouble shooting paper jams. Here I go ranting again, sorry it’s a reflex.

DJing has been going exceptionally well for me lately. Even though I told myself I wouldn’t I started doing top 40 / hip hop gigs to help a few friends of mine. No worries, you’ll only find me at the Lone Tree / Annex where the girl to guy ratio has to be at least 5:1. Seriously, it’s unlike any club I’ve ever seen in my life. On the electronic side, I’ve been busy as hell. Our guests this month for Axis Radio have never been better. Tenshi last week, Leon J tomorrow, Jack Trash, Strangelove, then finishing off with 34 and Big Mama J. Seriously, if you don’t download the show, I recommend you keep up this month. It’s hot. I’ve also been doing a weekly show on afterhoursdjs.org called “The House of Styles”. It gives me an opportunity to do something separate from Nascent Numen which I like.

I recently took place in the Sound In Motion DJ contest and was declared one of the 2 winners. This means in the near future I’ll be opening up for a national headliner. This means my goal of opening for a headliner this year is going to be realized. Christian is also bringing ZXX, one of the regulars over at FunkyHouseMusic.com to town and I’ll be opening for him. Seriously, djing is going amazingly well and I dont feel like I show any signs of slowing down.

As far as other things going on in my life and why I’ve been happier, you’ll have to ask me in real life. The internet can’t be my only means of communication to you right?

It’s kind of sad isn’t it? I guess I really didn’t have any girls pining for me to ask them out. Hell I could say I skipped high school to write code and drink mountain dew. True you’ve read me talk about bringing back the geek. Claiming the geek in me is dead. It may be dormant, but it’ll be here forever.

[geek] I learned this today while dialing into a site in Idaho. I was given the task to dial into a remote system, update a tcl script and then manually edit 10 different files to change a value in them. One thing I’ve *always* done my entire life is look at the efficiency of a given process. For example, when I started here, everyone used the Kermit Protocol to transferr files to remote systems. Granted the documentation to transfer files was written back in 1999, but back in 1995 I was using Xmodem/CRC. Yes that’s write folks, error correction! [/geek]

I think it all comes down to me being a natural problem solver. I love looking at a problem and saying “this should be done this way”. I’ve done it my entire life. When I was younger I was pulling apart my Transformers to see how they worked. When I started working, I reorganized the way ingredients were laid out in a more efficient manner. While reading procedures at work now, I question why they’re not done a certain way. Granted this has lead me to butting heads with supervisors. Sometimes there’s something to be said about the work needed to be more efficient vs. leaving a process as it is.

Thus I’ve decided what my answer will be in the future during interviews when I’m asked why I’m a better candidant than the others. I’m a geek. Regardless of what I might do outside of work, I’m still a geek at work. From reading all of the sites I’ve read for years, to using my past experience to redesign a process. It’s a certain quality you can’t learn in school. They can’t teach you how to think the way that I do along with the thousands of other geeks. It’s impossible to learn certain things, methods of problem solving in school and on the job.